Blast from the Past

Congratulate me..It has been 15 days 9 hours and 45 minutes since my last coffee (minus the coffee flavored candy, is that included here?!? if yes..then I've failed into the trap again - - I'm nuts!) But the point is this...

I revisit-ed the meaning of this with my girlfriends from HS...Closure. We carefuly tried to decipher its meaning and how important it is in our life, esp. in the part of our life where we had that special someone..gets mo na? **winks**

We'll, the best people to talk to are those with no pretensions, no hang-ups, no pa-cute or pa-profound effects on the side; so it's so refreshing to get to talk to people who will look at you straight in the eye and tell you you're crazy or you're pathetic or you're just plain love-sick-puppy =) **gosh i'm really glad we guys went out, i can't wait to see you all again **

Okay, where were we? Yes, we have that b.u.l.l-crap or that b.u.l.l-$#!+ session over dinner@ a grill in a mall then later on at a resto, where we all sat at a table in a nipa hut - - - and for once in my life I was relieved that I don't need to put up any of my defenses. Because it was all so true, that I feel numb and feeling nothing as of the moment towards my "love or loves in the past". Period. And I am happy where I am.

Since it was a mini-reunion, we can't help ourselves from re-visiting our pasts..but instead sobbing at each other's shoulders and hugging each other to sleep; like we used to do more than a decade ago, we were laughing to our heart's content of our infatuations, mistakes, booboos, triumphs, ka-babawans and ka-lokohans - - - we were happy rekindling our friendship with our love-stories from the past.

And the inevitable, some of us are still aching from relationships that did not have a "closure". And we tried to define it. Tried again,and tried even harder. But I guess, the beauty of NOT having been able to have that 'final-words' is this: some are hoping or still hoping..that in the future that relationship just stood still.

- - - Just like the friendship that I thought I lost when my girlfriends and I graduated in HS..And now it's back, with so much more to give than just hope; but new memories to make. But then again we also know better than this to make relationships worl..we know it takes more than blasting from the past..to love, to trust again..it's takes communication, commitment, courage, prayers and a lot of acting on these.

These you need to gap islands when you know that a bridge wouldn't stand a chance in the ocean that had been created in between. **encrypted message**