Saturday 1 December 2007

I said No!



I feel like I am a little kid being tagged along in a big zoo. Excited. Learning. Ecstatic. Wandering. Wondering.

I noticed the many variants of animals and the species of monkey vary in a lot of ways. I came to realize the inner beauty of the lion, the tiger, the panthers and have called them big cats eventually.

And with knowledge and wisdom came responsibility. I was asked to do things. Like take care of the earth we live in for them, and for us. Like campaign for their safety and prevent their extinction because of hunting. I did them joyfully. Successfully. (I think..) Correctly...and with excellence.

But just like any toddler. I began asking questions. I was curious. I wanted explanation. I came to 'question' why I allowed myself to become a sponge for a long time. And why I allowed myself to dwell in a lot of 'world' issues that is overwhelming.

And then finally, my 'hero' came. He taught me many lessons in life. I learned discipline. I learned priorities. I learned administration versus management. I learned to build bridges and connect gaps. I learned and learning became a habit.

And recently He smiled at me. And said the best that I did was when I agree to His challenge to learn. Thank goodness I didn't say 'no'.

Now I know why He is more than enough for all of us ^_^ And now I am ready to the a reliable custodian He wants me to be...because He is my trainer. We are partners in building, keeping and loving a 'home' called earth.

Me in December In the Rain


I am beginning to think my life is too slow for everybody else that surrounds me. Because I am seeing their lives as they unfold to reality from dreams. And settle in the present from plans that we were playing in our head.

But you know the usual 'me'... I know I am just in the right place. I am right on cue. I am where God wants me to be. I made suggestions to where I should be..But He guided me to complete His plan.

He had always wanted me to have more time with Him. And I can feel it all over me.

Now, I have more time for life.. I have more time for my family and friends..I have more time for myself. In short, He gave me the space and time to be able to deal with people and things that really matter to me the most.

And to that I am truly grateful.
Blessed.
- - - At peace with His loving embrace.

And the rain in December is all in the past. A memory that made me sadder but wiser.


September In The Rain Lyrics
by Frank Sinatra

The leaves of brown came tumbling down
Remember in September in the rain
The Sun went out just like a dying amber
That September in the rain

To every word of love I heard you whisper
The raindrops seemed to play our sweet refrain
Though spring is here to me it's still September
That September in the rain

To every word of love I heard you whisper
The raindrops seemed to play our sweet refrain
Though spring is here to me it is still September
That September in the rain

That September that brought the pain
That September in the rain