Unlimited

My place of work is also an area created for party-ing and gimmicks...I noticed the existence of cinemas, recreational areas, large parking areas, trails of indoor and outdoor restos, bars and the 24x7 variety of fast-food chains; makes sure that the whole miniature "city" is sleepless like the New York in US. But tonight as I sat for dinner; instead of enjoying the live band playing at the background and watch the young professionals, fashionistas and trendy teens pass me by; I was stroked by a lightning bolt of electricity! Okay that was an exaggeration personified. So, allow me to be more casual…I am bothered with the Filipino teens unlimited access to alcoholic drinks and beverages and 'smoke'. I was once a minor myself, but gosh I must bean homebody and a real hard-core student-home teen that I was not introduced to their “teen-age” world…

I am not holy nor am I perfect…But I learned drinking with my parent’s consent. And was introduced early in life how ‘smoking’ can affect my body, luckily taught by my own uncles who learned the hard way (Lung cancer, TB and need I say more?) They all say the same thing to me, “occasional drinking and smoking should be fine”. If they become ‘vices’ or you become addicted to them, that’s makes it bad. But all of them agreed to this one-liner, if you can avoid them, do.

Yes, I was fortunate enough to have a family that takes these issues seriously. But not all Filipino families take this as seriously as what our country's statistics primary causes of pre-marital sex…that leads to teen-age pregnancy, drunk-driving, murder, robbery and even suicide. *This is what happens when you become accustomed to lawyers as friends and politicians as relatives**lolz**

Even in high-school, we were taught about being “aware” of the cons of alcohol-drinking and smoking. And there was even a time when my parents or were reminded by our parish priest that 'charity begins at home'; and they were challenged to educate the youth about the consequences of being an alcohol-drinker and smoker. And then our priest asked everyone too to take extra effort for those who were born without a family or relatives or those who are physically away from their own loved ones. It was a long time ago but as I grow-up I noticed how our parish priest makes miracles into a reality in our lives.
And I also recalled having been reading this article of a 'minor' three years ago, who wrote a petition to 'lower the drinking age' in US from 21 years old to 18 years old…atleast. He wrote the petition when he was 19 years of age. And I wonder how he is now? And I'm guessing if he still remembers the petition he submitted to the office of the congress? But then again, he is already 21 now…why would he even bother following up, right?

But the point is…other countries do take “the right age of drinking and smoking” as national interest and a political responsibility. So what does the Filipino youth have to say or do about this? Nothing much I guess, we are free from taking responsibility of alcohol-drinking and smoking. It is up to an individual how he or she takes this 'freedom' and will...regardless if he or she was blessed with parents or relatives or friends or teachers or mentors that provides guidance and proper education regarding responsible alcohol-drinking and smoking (if should we call it that way..)

Well I was under 18 once, so now that I am not affected by this rule of no alcohol-drinks and smoke to under 18 years of age; should I still care? Should I be bothered? Should I take part and take this issue to a higher court? I guess I don’t have to…

Because we can do better than that…A ‘blog’ is a very powerful yet also educational; sometimes can be political, entertaining and I must say sensible argumentative tool of today....

Check out the blog http://blog.youthrights.org/, see for yourself what the youth does with their freedom and how powerful part of the society we are. **winks**

Goldie-Looks?

I have always dreamt of having a curly hair..just like the one Goldilocks have. So when I had enough courage to ask my mom to have my hair perm-ed when I was in Grade 1.. I did not mind going through that 'smell ' and sitting in the parlor for almost four hours because I really wanted to look like Goldilocks. And when I saw the results..I screamed - - - with devastation!

Yes you heard me right, not with excitement or happiness that my dream came true! They curled it...Aeta-style and not Goldilocks-style. I cried…and thanked my mom. She thought I was crying with joy, but I did not want to make her feel bad because my little wish caused her a lot of money. (…and it was not part of the budget.) So I kept my true feelings to myself and carried what I thought was my “crowning-glory”- - - that 'kinky' hair for the next two horrifying months…And as if my mind can control the dead hair-follicles in my head (that's your hair in scientific terms!)…they straightened it-self. But there was an after shock of my pure-vanity...my hair strands must have been poisoned, they were thinner and my hair color went to dark brown from midnight black.. And stayed that way until now..**sniff**

Now that I know better... I won't go to the parlor to have my permanent perm with the liquid-thing-that-smells-like-medicine; even if they say that the hair stylist studied in London or the hair expert of Asia..I’ll just go to the parlor or salon to have my one-day Goldilocks-curly-hair done for special events... **winks** But the lesson is, I like my hair as it is, just as God made it for me… After all I noticed that there are ‘more’ out there who actually have their hair "straighten-ed" to have that long-smooth-as-silk-look as that of Pocahontas **lolz**

Burger Anyone?

Ever since I got from Tokyo..everyone in my team kept on telling me about this "Good Burger", since I am not really a fan of meat and would rather feast on seafoods, chicken, veggies and fruits..I wasn't really thrilled. And maybe because I haven't really tasted it anyway..so I didn't join the fanatics.

Today is my independence day..I am liberated for a day from my diet routine because I've achieved my ideal weight (as prescribed by my physician and resident nurse ;-D) So I am rewarding myself atleast once a week to enjoy a meal that doesn't fall righteously in my diet *winx*

So, I ordered the BLT-Good..it's an A- taste for me. Plus, it was prepared to keep the food warm and most importantly it comes with my fave kectchup;-)

One Alien Day

Eto na naman ako..trying to look at the earth from outer space. Pakiramdam kong lumulutang na naman ako mula sa katawan ko at hindi ko ito kilala, “Afloat” na naman ako,at umiiwas sa pag-focus sa isang bagay na ayaw kong bigyan pansin pero pilit isinisiksik ang “existence” sa buhay ko.

Damang-dama ko ang drama…parang tele-serye. And quote & quote, masama eto!! Wala pa man din akong harness na gamit..at sintaas na ng Mount Everest and kinalalagyan ko. Pati ako, hindi ko alam bakit ako naka-abot ng ganun kataas sa sea level? At lumagpas na nman sa human zone at andito ako sa atmosphere..

At andyan na yung regular conversation namen araw-araw ni “Lord” na nakaka-pundi na sa kulit:

Gosh Lord, nag-jojoke ka na nman…lab mo talaga ako…
*sabay emote at isang malalim na pag-hinga. Sa huli, makikipag-bargain pa rin naman ako*
Pwede bang gawin mu na lang siyang impossible ulit?
Pwede bang hindi na lang siya human o real tulad ng dati? O kaya, pwede bang gawin mu na lang akong wallpaper ulit na dinadaan-daan lang??
At pwede bang ibalik mo na lang siya sa pedestal?
Doon na lang siya..kung saan nilagak ko siya ng matagal na panahon?? Pleasssseee???**emote**
Pero ayun, wala naman mangyayari. Ang ending, kakamutin ko lang ang ulo ko..magigising ako na hindi ito isang panaginip…

Nakakatawa ako noh? Batukan nyo nga ako…*boink!*

Heto ako, gusto ko na namang maging “alien”. Samantalang nung nasa outer space ako wala akong hinangad na masulyapan. Oo may mga distraction, pero bago ako makatulog, siya lang ang ngiti na mag-iiwan..**sniff**

Akalain mong gusto ko na maging alien forever… uma-atras ako oh..nag-rereverse naaahhh. Naduduwag ako. Ayan, inamin ko na.

Hindi ko naisip na pwede maging totoo, na pwede akong maging tao. At eto nagtagpo ang aming landas..Ang isang alien na tulad ko at siya.

Ako na sobrang curios sa earth at may ADHD...At siya na “hero” at “blessing” sa mundong ibabaw.

Pero sabi nga nila; “in life those that are perfect may not be the best ‘fit’..So siguro kelangan niya ng hindi *perfect*. Siguro kelangan niya ng tamang timpla lang..Siguro hindi naman kelangan perfect ako..just *right* lang..

At iyon, natapos ang araw ng pagkukunwaring alien ako… and my vision of the ending became very clear..brutally became more honestly clear…

“We headed to different directions…met different people.
Love and thought we found forever; then had our hearts broken…
Yet the next best thing just happened, out of nowhere…
we started walking towards the sun…
not even to each other…
But as if God still destined us to be together…”

*napaluha na lang ako* I’m human again.

If Only..not the Movie

Panu kung 'di ako nabigyan ng 'Last Chance'..ikakanta ko na lang malamang...

Artist: Allure

This is my last dance with you
This is my only chance to do
All I can do
To let you know
that what I feel for you is real
So real

This is the last chance for us
This is the moment that
I just Can not let end
Before I know that there's a chance
we're more than friends
So don't let go
Make it last all night
This is my last chance to make you mine
I kept my feeling so deep
I kept my dreams of you
and me

Somewhere inside
Although I prayed that you would see it in my eyes
But this is my last chance to say
What's in my before you fade
Out of my life
And never understand
the way I feel inside
So hold me close
So don't let go
Cause it feels so right

This is my last chance
to make you mine
Make this dream reality
So close and yet so far
Gotta find a way into your heart
Gotta speak my mind
Gotta open up to you this time I can't let you slip away tonight

This is my last dance with you
This is my only chance to do
All I can do
To let you know
that what I feel for you is so real
So don't let go
Just make it last all night long
This is my last chance
to make you mine
....To make you mine

21st Century Venusians..

“Pantay na ang female at male genra dati pa.. Akala lang ng mga Maria Clara dati deprived cla.. But by doing the ‘panyo’ and the ‘pamaypay’ things..that's motivation or encouragement already with grace nga lang…”

Sabay tawa at tanong sa kaibigan ko ng confirmation, “Di ba?”

As expected, ang sabi niya sa akin, “Pero ‘di pa rin. Sakit ng ulo lang ang mga lalaking yan!” At sabay kaming natawa..nansundan ng matinding katahimikan. Binasag lang ng kaibigan ko nung ikonfirm nya, “Do I sound like a man hater?”

Mahinang tawa lang ang sagot ko, at sabay sabi ng “Oks lang yan..kasi don’t worry too much.”

At nagbuntong-hininga..eto na ang moment of truth na inaantay ko mula sa kanya, “ O broken hearted lang ako..kaya ako ganto…” Bago pa bumaha ng luha..sumegway na ako. I cut her short from delivering a speech, inunahan ko siya at ako ang nagbigay ng lecture…

“Basta tayo enjoy sa life..magmaganda sa career at sa life in general! Smile ka na..anu ka ba..You have to leave the past in the past..sabi nga ni ‘lola’ there is a reason why some people never made it in your present. So, dapat.. deadma ka na! Sayang ang mga dumaan na opportunity, if you keep turning your head back where you came from. Sabihin mu na lang sa sarili mu.. Nagmahal ka..you tried your best to make it work..Correction, you both tried..”

Napaisip ako, mali ata last words ko kasi nag-reply siya ng ganto.. “Naiiyak ako sa sinabi mo...”

So kelangan ko bawiin…,

“Alam mo thank God that He gave him to you for some time to learn and enjoy how it is to love and be loved. And since you are capable of loving naman and you are worth being loved in return..why not take a risk of learning to love again..”
“I am sorry friend, if I made you cry…”
“Pero its okay to cry. Mahirap din pilitin kung hindi ka pa ready talaga.”

“Oo nga, ang tagal tagal na nun. Parang wala pa rin akong progress.”

“Visualization remember? Hindi mu kasi ma-visualize..So try, okay?”

Smiley icon sagot siya. Pero umamin din sa huli, “Kapag may dumadating kasi, ako yung tumatakbo..”

So umamin na din ako, “Ako din. Tumatakbo ako. Sa ngayon kasi hindi ko priority dahil may ibang akong focus. At feeling ko unfair kasi sa guy, na i-entertain ko cya... So, ayokod! Kaya friend dama kita.. Naiintidihan ko na hindi ka takot sa commitment, gusto mu lang na ‘whole’ ka. At gusto natin na masabi, "you complete me." Natawa ako sa sarili ko kasi galling ung sa isang tagalong movie na kakapalabas pa lang.

“Yes! Ganyan exactly yung nararamdaman ko. Dont want to use anybody just to make me feel better.”

“Okay lang to take time to heal oneself..I think we should not fake what we feel towards another person just to feel "wanted" or "loved" or "important"..coz by doing that, you become selfish, that’s like feeding only your ego…”

“Tao ung involve, may feelings un..masama ang manloko, manggamit at manakit para lang sa sariling kapakinabangan...”

“So tru..”
“Haayyy.”

“Haayy talaga. So ano, log-off na ako. Night ka pa rin ba?”

“Okay, bukas ulit. Hindi na ako night shift. Ikaw ba?”

“Night shift pa rin. Ingat ka dyan ha.”

“Yup,ikaw din. Goodnight.”

“Nope, good morning na.”