You're God

one of the hardest things on earth to accept
is when the people you love do not understand you..
because when they don't..
you're doubtful that they love you enough
you're doubtful that they trust you enough
you're doubtful that they respect you enough
to make decisions for yourself
and on your own

by Vertical Horizon

I've got to be honest
I think you know
I'm covered in lies and that's okay
There's somewhere beyond this I know
But I hope I can find the words to say

Never again, no
No never again

Chorus
'Cause you're a God
And I am not
And I just thought
That you would know
You're a God
And I am not
And I just thought
I'd let you go

But I've been unable
To put you down
I'm still learning things I ought to know by now
It's under the table so
I need something more to show somehow

Never again no
No never again

You're a God
and I am not
and I just thought
that you would know
You're a God
and I am not
and I just thought
I'd let you go

I've got to be honest
I think you know
I'm covered in lies and that's okay
There's somewhere beyond this I know
I hope I can find the words to say
Never again no
No never again

You're a God
and I am not
and I just thought
That you would know
You're a God
and I am not
and I just thought
I'd let you go

Repeat
it's just so sad...

Salamat sa Transition

naisip kong ipanalangin
sa Iyo ang pagdaraan ko sa bagong buhay
na tatahakin ko.

..sa bawat pagbabago
may napapabuti
may napapasama

..sa bawat pagbabago
iniisip ko sana ay Ikaw ang may gawa
ndi ko mawaring pinabayaan Mo lang ito mangyari
sa akin.

sabi nga nila
winners make things happen
losers let things happen.

sa tingin ko
win-win situation ako basta ako ay ginabayan Mo.

ang time mabilis kapag may gusto kang marating
tulad ng "change" constant ito
sa paglipas
sa pagtakbo

kahapon lumalakbay ako sa buhay ng nakapikit
ngayon buong tapang akong humaharap sa daluyong
ng dagat
ng hapon
ng umaga
ng hangin

humahalik ako sa pag-asa ng pagbabago sa buhay ko
makakamtam ko ang tagumpay na batid Mo para sa akin
para magbigay ako ng buhay sa buhay...
at alam ko sa bawat hakbang at unos
ay nariyan ka
at ako ay
hawak ang kamay
Mo,
Panginoon.

Wedding Vows

Laman tyan din yan, pede na.
Gusto ko na magka-bf eh..ok na siya.
Mukha nman siyang okay…di ba?
Three different sentences..Three enganged people. What is common among them? Mediocrity.

Sabi nga ni Jacq “satisficing” sa blog nya ang tawag sa ganun.. in elaboration terms: acceptable to the taste since it’s the conveniently available and comfort zone as its finest. Whew..kakatawa pakinggan noh?
Hindi nakakatawa. Totoong tao ang involved.
At kasama ang mga feeling dito.
Sabi nga ng matatanda, hindi ito pagkain na pedeng iluwa kapag ayaw mu na..and all that *jazz*. Hindi joke ang pagpapakasal.

Nothing personal really.
I’m just scared to see people wallowing themselves to achieve what is *reachable*. Abot-kamay..pero sabi din nila..

Bat ka pa maghahanap..Andyan na yan.
Ok na.
Pede na.Or worse - - - nabuntis ko eh.Nagtataka lang ako kung pano ako haharap sa altar at ganun ang wedding vows mu.

Hindi ko cguro maatim.
Hindi ko kaya na sabihin ang mga ganun.

Gusto ko proud ako.
Gusto ko taas noo kung sasabihin na naghanap kaming dalawa sa *crowd*.
Gusto ko sabihin na pinag-trabahuan naming ang relasyon na ‘yun para makaharap kami ng buo ang loob sa Kanya.
Gusto ko masabi na “mahal ko ang tao na ‘to Lord”
…at hindi lang ako napilitan kasi wala na akong choice.

At ganyan ang mangyayari sa araw na yun. Ganyan.

Speak now or Forever be Silent

More than words can tell..
our body shows all there is in our head.
How did I know this?

wala na palang sasarap pa sa tamis
ng ngiti na magmumula sa taong nais mong makita...

enuf said.

giggles
chuckles
..more smirking

mahirap pala kapag
ika'y kinikilig na parang high-skulish
gusto mu hulihin ang mga butterflies sa tyan mu
pero khit anung pigil mu
..lalong nang-gi-gigil

..when he's not looking,
you stare
..when he looks back at you
you look away
- - -goodness!

sabi nila andrenaline rush daw tawag dun
kaya ka namumula
kaya ka pinagpapawisan..

i need not say more..
our body says it all.

P.S. This was written in an A&W tissue I found in one of the books long overdue from my college library..Hindi ko na binalik yung book, kze pinabayran na sa akin yung book *Lolz*

Emotional Vampire

I am sure you’ve met some of them in your life.

Definition

They will draw out the positive aura in you. leaving only the dark forces that makes you breathless, damp and weary. It will suck up your dreams..leaving no energy for you to regain it back.

How?

They have nothing good to say or do or influence in your life... They will string your emotions from you, thus leaving you lost in the sea or in pain or endlessly pulling you down or leaving you frozen. At times they will steal your dreams away from you.

Whatever they’ve made you feel, awareness is key to avoiding these type of people who just plainly ‘drain’ you to death for their own survival!

...in every aspect of life this is just so true.

Notice the bullies around? Hypocrites? Pressure cookers and toasters?

Suckkerrss??? kelan ba ma-uubos ang mga tulad nila?

Extreme Summer

I will always remember May 26, 2007 (Saturday) - - - For today I have conquered two of the top 5 greatest fears of man.. One is the fear of heights, my teammates and I had rapelling and the other is the fear of water..we had snorkling in Apo Island..
On our last day, we had a city tour...and I was lucky enough to meet "Chicken Inato" at Jo's...but I'd talk about that on another blog entry...

By the way..Apo Island is one of the top 10 best dive spots in the world! I won't be sharing pics of the coral sanctuary..so you'd be forced to visit Dumaguete and judge for yourself the paradise on earth we *experienced*